Action Speaks Louder Than Bullshitting

Hello my lovelies...
How are you guys holding up?
How has your week been?
Im truly sorry for not bloggin as much as i do before lately...
I have so much on my plate right now that i couldn't think straight these past few weeks...
A lot has happened in my life , bad things has happened in my life to be exact...
As the outcomes of my carelessness and silliness that i spended over less than year...
I've paid the price and pretty much are mournin for my consequences but i promise y'all that it is a brief mournin while im still despair from it...

I think ive pretty much dealt with my own problem and handled it maturely and in a grown up method...
I just cant stand this stressful circumstances and the drive of racin against my peeps seem to be lacking as the days go by and passing...
I wont be blogging as frequent as i had and im settin some ground rules up such as wont be online for more than an hour,finish my homework up before i get some tv time,and pretty much slog through each chapters of form 4's and form 5's..
But y'all know that i ain't that good with temptations so im just going to try my best and my hardest of makin those ground rules executed somehow...
I have to as my future is at stake and dangling on an empty,dingy pothole where it could fall anytime if i dont do anythin about it...

P/S:XOXO

Unscripted Emotion As Our Love Sets In Motion

Alhamdulilah im no longer feeling down or bummer and to be truthful im all set and partially prep to bring down the wall that has been standin in my way to my goal which is to get straight A's and get my ass out of Puncak Alam ASAP...
I came to a realization that at where im standin and where i've position myself turned out to be a risk meanin im jeopardizing and sabotaging my chances that rolls in my way and pretty much ruin it at the end...
Im gonna to do my best to get straight A's for my supreme and favourite subjects such as English,Sejarah,Bahasa Malaysia and Tassawur Islam...
Im goin to focus 200% on those subjects and ace my SPM exam...
Yesterday's post was filled with negative vibe and all broodiness and sombreness I guarantee y'all those energy won't be comin near me ever again and tell you what that is a promise i made to myself and to the lord himself...
I know whenever im feelin down or stress i should lean on and pray to the superior which is my Creator Allah...
And i've pretty much embrace the concept and live with it peacefully...
Allah has plans for me and in one of those plans im sure that he might have had 'an array of gifts and 'an array of challenges' altogether and have it stored for me..
Now all i gotta do is to figure my life out which is a total mystery and live my life to the max physically and mentally...

P/S:I love my life,
I love my family,
I love Allah

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1.03.01

It Is A Labyrinth To Reach The Peak

Today was one of the crappiest and devastating day of my entire life...
The reasons of all this sadness was caused by my trials result..
It was pretty frustrating and disturbing to get such low marks especially for my BM and im not really good at dealing with these lower marks side effects thingy..
It was a massive bummer for me because as far as i remember the night before the exam took place i slog through all of the BM syllabus like a maniac and i did not let my time be in vain...
I am just mad at myself like i keep askin myself ' what went wrong?'how'd i come up with such marks?' It bothers me to not actually gain an A for my mother tounge and i instantly teared up in my prayers..
I seriously felt like not a winner and i think i rather have my life ended so quickly due to this unbearable pressure...
Im way dissapointed with my results and im keeping my fingers crossed that Allah would have mercy on me and bless me till the day of my SPM exam starts and ends..
I still haven't gotten my English paper back though...
I so cannot deal with anymore lower marks or i'll seriously shot myself in the head...

P/S:Allah Almighty...
Allah Almighty...

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1.03.01

My Love For You Has No End

"these violent nights have violent ends,
And in their triumph die,
like fire and powder,
which, as they kiss,

consume."

-William Shakespeare

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1.03.01

Pinky Promise We'll Remain Besties?

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”

FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)

FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.

BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”

FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.

BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.

FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.

BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”

FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.

BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.

FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.

BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.

FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.

BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”

FRIENDS: Will help you move.

BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.

FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.

BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”

or

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again

BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!

FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.

BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.

BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.

BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.

FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.

BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.

BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.

BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.

BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.

BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”

FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.

BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.

FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)

BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.

BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!

FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.

BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this :)

P/S:Dedicated to my other halfs - Mas&Faez <3

I Get My Deepest Funk When I See You Around

Good evening my lovelies..!
Thank god!Trials are over and there will be no more of it that i have to face...
Im pretty much enjoyin it but at the same time im feelin a little bit of grieve on the inside though due to the fact school life will meet its end for me within a month which means no more unnecessary dramas and petty arguments between you and one of your classmates or even with one of your teachers...
Do not misconstruing my writings here i so not goin to miss Puncak Alam that is without a doubt my darlings...
But its undeniable that i am gonna miss some of the moments i had shared with my closest friends at Taman Sea and of course Section 7,Shah Alam...
In case y'all are wonderin who exactly are my friends at Sec 7...?
They are Faez,Farah Wahida and our midget Ikmal...
I know that i seldom talk about them because currently they are in a vocational school except for Ikmal whom refused to turn his back on Sec 7 i supposed...
So we've pretty much do not call each other up and not knowin each others's progress but still we havent lost touch...
Its just that they are in a boarding school which means lessen privileges such as cell phones,internet services etc...
So it kinda sucks not knowin what have they been up to and not knowin how are they holdin up...
But just so you know im terribly been missin them and are missin them...
They are people whom i adore and love and i know that they are also been feelin the same way especially my other half Faez...
Faez is like my brother from another family and we happen to share a passion of America's Next Top Model and all sorts of entertaiment things...
Add to that, we both are heinously blunt and fashion victims...
So yeah!
Mas is like my soul sister and he's like my soul brother...
Enough said there are a bunch of people whom i adored to the max and they are Mas,Faez and Naj...
I thank Allah for gracing them into my life and hopefully there wont be any negative transformation happen to any of these aesthetic brotherhood and that it will remain pure,safe and sound where it already has been now...
They are the coolest bunch of people in the whole universe...

P/S:Im still not in my best condition and add to that i had lost my voice for 2 days and cannot verbalize in such manner where i used to...
Sure be needing plenty of rest and plenty of mineral water

Have Our Affection Jaggard?

Good evening my lovelies and my jobless stalkers...
How are y'all feelin tonight?
Im sure y'all are pumped and lookin forward on what to happen the next day am i right?
Well count me out of it..
Nah!!Im just pullin ur leg of course...
How has your week been?
Mine's been pretty liberating i guess since i did not go to school for the whole week...
I know!!Unbelieveable isn't it?
Trust me i aint bluffing It was for real...
Well one thing fosho, i wasn't absent on purpose just dont have any papers to sit for during the whole week...
Rather than spendin those days swearin and cursin at some teachers and classmates i might as well not attend at all...
I still have 2 more papers left than it is the very end of my trials...
As soon as it ends time for SPM(sigh)
I hope i'll get a very good grades,better than what i hope for...
Its been pretty therapeutic and i finally are able to issue this...
IM SO AT EASE FOR NOT SEEING THOSE LAME FUCKTARDS!
A week off from PA is dreamy and i really cant wait till i let myself lose from that living breeding hell.. In other words, the last day of SPM exam is my long freedom day...
Right after that its time for Jakarta...
I cannot believe im sayin this but i truly and profoundly been missin Jakarta...
Despite its massive jam and overly packed people i still are able to grow a fond of it...
Well not fully a fond of it but partially a fond of it..
I need a change for a while...
A change of perspective,a change of sight,a change of cultures and last but not least a change of ambience..
All in all,who knows i might learn a thing or two and get something up along the journey...
Keepin my fingers crossed

P/S:Jet'aime Jakarta
Mind my lousy French...
XOXO...

Procrastinate To Our Love Destination

P/S:Im so countin days till it hits the theatre nearby...
For the record Cam Gigandet and Christina Aguilera should be married to one another...
They make a hot,sultry couple onscreen and i do believe as well as off-screen..

Recklessly Decipher My Poker Face

Dont ever think i could easily forget bout ya'll my lovelies or should i say stalkers...
Whoever you are you are most welcome here on my site as long as you dont post up anythin vulgar here on my page...
Heads up that is a primary term...
So recently on October 2nd 2010 i've had an open house or what i like to call a preferential gathering for my cousins, friends and neighbours...
Let me just tell you guys it was off the chain and a lot of people came and pretty much that was a major shocker to the four of us...
My mom's friend whom we called Cik Ros cooked heaps of food especially for those who came on that day...
Mama and my sister did cook and added one or two cuisine for the banquet in order to complete the serving and as usual i was practically not allowed being in the kitchen due to my bogus cooking skill which im not so proud of speakin bout it...
Who knew we were feeding guzzlers as we ran out of food and dishes
I was head over heels when all of my closest and bestest boyfriends and girlfriends actually made it on that special event...
Especially my sister from another mother Mas Izzati and my brother from another father Najmudin Fadzil...
Their presence really meant the world to me and im extremely overjoy by their willingness...
And of course there were hassles and hiccups that are not able to be separated from all the mayhem and mishaps that took place and as we all forsee things did get out of hands and unmanageable but in the end we finally got it together...
Credit goes to Mas Izzati who relentlessly lend a hand in our chaotic moments and i owe you Mas big time..
She is such a big helper
Mas,Naj and I gossiped on loads of stuff that was goin on so they were tellin me all these juicy details bout someone and pretty much had a good laugh bout it and im very much physched that i have Mas and Naj in my life...
They do influence me a bit and now that we're joined by Naj i sorta look up to him cuz at my age and at my position lets face it im in need of male influencer and so i think he fits the criteria...
The two of them were 'stranded' at my house till 10p.m. and me and my sister sent them back to their homes in the middle of the night...
It was one of those flawless moment as i would put it and would not want it in any other way...

P/S:Thx you guys...
Love always
XOXO...

I Made Love To You At The Top Of Our Castle

Extremely funny...
Couldn't get enough of it
A totally sarcastic parody...

Twinning In A Sticky Rigmorole

Yello fucktards..
So i had my Mathematics trial last tuesday and it was somethin that i wasn't lookin forward to...
Im predictin the result would be so-so or probably heading to downward spiral...
Trials are extremely exhausting and challenging and it has place me in a weird mental state,the one i like to call 'Mentally Upset'
I am literally on the verge of breakdown and i cant wait for SPM trials and SPM exam to be over with...
I so need a long period of time to rest and to recover from such revolting state and keeping my fingers crossed that such thing would take place anytime soon..
I really hope my english paper would be impressive enough to actually gain an A+...
That would really make my day...
By next week i'll not be comin to school because they'll be having geography,physics,perdagangan etc...
Since those subjects are not in my core subjects nor electives i might as well be absent throughout the week..
I mean what for i show my face up for nothin right?
So i might as well hinder those high guarantee boring/dreadful days...

P/S:Imma be havin plenty of my best girlfriends over at my place this Saturday due to 'open house' that is goin to take place.. Really physched up for it.. I'll spill more on that in the next post..