Who Has Been Knocking On My Heart?

Aloha people!!

Its me ur awfully hip and cutest blogger writin here!!Let me just express my yearn and tremendous longing to be back on this site,writting stuff and gossiping stuff..

The feeling is startin to overwhelms me one more time

i've been itchin to blog since the past 3 months or so but as always life doesnt come without obstructions and hassles,so for all my readers who had been fealty to this blog eversince it's been created i bid my apology for it was unintentional of me to do so..

Life's been goin on as usual at my campus,well since most of the days im stuck there...

There are some pretty awesome memories and pretty mundane memories altogether and not to mention my 'Ive hit rock bottom' memories as well..

I am currently known as Haiqal the triple threat as i had been involved in the cultural activities there and dont mean to brag but i kicked ass!!!

I realized that my talent is meant to be shared with the rest and to incur a realization to those who have been undermining and pickin on me because of my uniqueness that im just as special as they are..

Hold up..

They are all anythin but special..

Why am i sayin this?its because all they know ,are to discriminate and make fun of me..

and believe me i didnt enjoy a single moment of those effing deplorable harrasing session 

But i guess that's what makes who i am now,my distinctiveness is what keep me grounded and chipper..

I couldnt be bother with what others think or say bout me,for all i care they could talk shit bout me to their hearts content..

im owning this image and i aint goin back!!

Enough bout them let's talk bout somethin else for a change shall we?

My studies are pretty much puttin me under a tonnes of pressure,i only have 2 papers to worry about for finals but it feels like im takin more than 2 papers..

Urgh! i pin this on microeconomics 

its a cursed subject, the contents are utterly absurd and im on the verge of loosing the sanity of my own for this subject..

I tried to understand it and i did cramped up the whole calculation work into this skull of mine but i still couldnt  get a much better grade for its quizzes and tests..

Finals are comin up real soon and i somehow have to buckle up real hard if i want to get a much better grade

The other day i dabbled into an english poem writing competition and ranked at number 2..

That was almost unexpected since there's a really funny story behind that event

I worded my poem on a piece of paper the day before , and it took place in my dorm all by myself

and the night of the competition came and long story short im nervous as hell

I went up on stage,in position and my head went blank,i could not think of a single sentence to even verbalize

I took control and started to made up a bunch of a whole new lines in my head,of course i emote emotions while sayin them,i even pranced up and down on stage to make it as realistic as i could

At the end of the day i ranked at number 2,im thoroughly impressed with my ability to perform in public..

Well i never thought i had in me.. 

I think i have to go now cuz there are plenty of stuffs that need to be done

Toodles..

Helpless and Fickle

Bonsoir peeps!Sorry for neglecting this page for quite sometime,an apology is all i have to offer to y'all due to my negligence...

I've been really hectic with my new life as a college student and by hectic i mean busy and pressure combined ..Been bawled in tears and dying out of was all i did stayin here but fortunately i get to head home over the weekends so ya bet the stress level has mannerly decreased each week goes by...

I havent found someone here whom i could make my confidant...

People here are very much vain and self-centered and seems to not care bout how other people might be feelin when sentences are generally verbalized ...

I've been tearing up really hard and once i did somethin that i thought i'd never do in a million years and that was cried myself to sleep which took place just last night...

 Sayin adieu to my folks was the hardest thing i did yesterday as it has been a week of Eid Mubarak hols,i celebrated Eid Mubarak in a moderate manner,wore the same glamified bedazzled Baju Melayu..

Went back to both my parent's hometowns which was in Tg Malim and Sg Buloh,not that distant kan?

Both losses on parent's sides were the loss of my grandparents so this year Eid celebration was mundane and abnormally morbid...

One of my cousins got engaged and we partook the engagement entourage that happened in Bangi,as the future bride's home was located there..

Nothin much happened last week and the week before was also common

I dont know how long will i be feelin this pangs and this irking malaise..

I guess as long as i still be studying  here   

Pray for my serenity and happiness will ya dolls?

Happy Ramadhan Loves

 

Ah La Wasahlan Ramadhan and peace be upon all of my lovelies...

Its been quite a while since i last posted any blog entry , i sincerely and profoundly apologize for i was too caught up with assignments and adapting to a whole new study place and a sidelined note i dont have any laptop which means surfing the net is absolutely out of the question...

 

First and foremost i'd like to express my gratitude and content by welcomin the holy month of Ramadhan, it is still not late for me to do so am i right?

It is the only month that only comes once a year to grace us with its halo and opportunity to amend ourselves and perform our obligations towards our loving Creator...

Those days are institute with clandestined heaps of challenges for us human to face in order to prove our faithfulness and love going through the days in the name of Allah..

30 days of fast seems unconventional but really it is the peak of Ramadhan that makes it all worth it..

Especialy the Terawikh prayers right after breaking fast...

Now let's move on to my current life , i've been stayin at Sultan Idris Shah Polytechnic located in Sabak Bernam in the state of Selangor , so far its been rough and massive and by rough and massive i mean beyond the actual definition of its meanings...

I hate my roomie,i dont have any close nor best friends besides acquaintances whom i hardly care to get to know bout...

Im gradually becomin a misfit and not that im not familiar with the term but its just ive been seriously homesick and i miss all my best friends...

If only we are in the same institution , i guess ya can never always get whatcha want....

The course is interesting yet mind challenging and im starting to fall in love with the essence of its course but there's only one problem here ,microeconomics is in my syllabus and i freaked the hell out when i found out bout it..

Have no idea on how im gonna do it but it seems that i have a limited options to even put into weighing...

I just gotta go through it...

To be honest it scares me to the core..

Please pray and hope for the best for my end year exam lovelies..

Call Me The Mr Jagger!

(im just freakishly obsessed with Hardy Hartono and Fazura)

Holla bitches

its me again in this another new entry of mine..

So did i mention that i'll be relocating to a different study venue?

Yeah i just got an offer from Politeknik and heck knows what does that even mean

But since the course that was offered to me is a job guaranteed i decided to just take it up...

Ya know give it a try and face the all new challenge thats instored for me at this new place..

At the beginning of the decision makin i was quite perturbed about leavin PTPL...

I mean its been an ok 3 weeks of stay there and i got to know some of the new faces there but were never really hit it off with em just well acquainted with them all..  

And not that im not a wee bit skeptical bout moving to a different place,i was completely against it in the first place but after takin into some considerations and weighing i think its best for me to go for it

That said i gotta stay at the dorm accommodated for the next few months and i hope im as an adaptable as a snake..

I know its gonna take a while for me to get use to the surroundings and facilities but i'll go through it..

Even if i have to immolate myself and be a martyr for the sake of my well-secured future success 

Unabashedly i hope it wont be as draining as i imagine it would be..

My blackberry wont be out of my sight,it will cling to me like an anchor 24/7..

i pray for a long run of happiness at Politeknik Sultan Idris Shah Sabak Bernam...

Talk to y'all later...!!!

Crevice In The Moon

Hey y'all we meet again in my teeny tiny unnoticed fab page...

Forgive me for not blogging as much i should due to the hectically time in my life thats makin me to stay out of the blog gateway for a very long period of time..

Eversince i got back from Jakarta things have been super fab for the past 3 weeks or so..

Im now a PTPL College's student majorin in English Language Teaching(ELT)...

For some of ya who may not get what ELT means its really equivalently the same as Teaching English As A Second Language or for short people have called it TESL..

But at PTPL the name of the program is called ELT...

So far things have been gladly worked out and fingers crossed it stays the same until the day of my graduation

Ive adapted to the surroundings and pretty much dig it,though my classrooms are miles away from the entrance of the campus and its been my friggin job to locate the classrooms in order for me to get to class without being tardy which is one of my dislikes..

Nonetheless..it went pretty well the past 3 weeks..

I met some new friends and not to mention  encountered some familiar faces from my former school..

But there's this guy who was one of my classmates and i think my closest girlfriends know who am i takin about..

I didnt expect to be this enthusiastic and happy to meet him again and it was one of the wonderful and sweetest moments i've ever had with him..

He took me by surprise by being all nice and gregarious and within the vicinity chat we had, he used his name instead of using 'aku' or engkau' which got me thinkin why the nice gestures?

I mean not that i want him to make my life a livin hell but why bother gave me a different treatment than the one ya gave back then?

Im a wee bit quire bout him , but yeah it made my day to see his bright and beautiful smile for the very first time and  i kinda and sorta want the chance to bump into him again..

Who knows what could happen the next time we run into each other right?

I have tonnes of assignments that needs to be done,not that much though,am being rhetoric as always..

So thats it from me dolls and i'll be sure to update this site as frequent as i can in my pastime okai?